My relationship with
food is something I’ve always struggled with. Before I started my journey, I
used to comfort eat a lot which resulted in me putting a lot of weight on. At
school at hard times I used food as a comfort and basically to feed my emotions
instead of speaking to people. This made me pile on the weight, and I didn’t like
how I looked.
My relationship with
food has only very recently improved. While it used to look like I had my shit
together in regards of working out and eating a healthy balanced diet I really
didn’t. In the very beginning of my journey (08/10/18) I suddenly just cut
everything out that I thought was ‘bad’ for me and didn’t eat it. I never used
to treat myself and used to eat very minimum food. I wouldn’t eat cake or
biscuits. I stopped drinking everything apart from water and was eating well
under my calories in order to lose weight at a healthy rate. While it did help me lose weight quickly, I
wasn’t eating enough for my body to recover from the amount of training I was
doing. I felt really tired, sluggish and light headed all the time.
Every time I ate something I thought was ‘bad’
I would go to the gym again and do another session. It wasn’t until Christmas
where I allowed myself to enjoy food. I ate foods that I wanted, and I enjoyed myself.
I ate the chocolate and drank alcohol. After Christmas I did have a bit of a
detox as I did eat enough mince pies and drank enough gin to last me a life
time.
Since around February
time I’ve stopped punishing myself for eating things that I want (although on a
daily basis I 99.9% try to stick in my calorie limit) If I want that slice of cake,
I’ll have it. A lot of the time now having cake, eating chocolate and drinking
doesn’t really bother me and I’m not to fussed whether I have it or not. I have
stopped punishing myself when I go out and enjoy myself. By changing my
thinking and eating a more sustainable diet I feel like I finally have a better
relationship with food which works alongside my training sessions.
Beth x
Disclaimer - I am only sharing my experience of changing to a healthy lifestyle and weight loss. We are all different.
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